Wish It Was a Happier New Year

 Don't get me wrong, I was so happy to visit my daughter in Indiana and she and her family were happy to see us. We exchanged gifts. We were gifted some laser-cut ornaments my son-in-law designed and cut at work on the plasma laser. We also stopped by the cemetery to lay flowers on my former hubby's grave and my younger daughter's grave. We drove down on Saturday morning and returned Monday morning, December 30th. Hubby worked Monday night and now is off for a few days until January 6th. We took a walk yesterday and plan to walk again today and every day that we can, bundled up.

Yesterday we stopped by Hobby Lobby and bought some yarn and a loom pick tool for the long loom I was gifted. I bought an artificial fern for my desk. I don't normally like plastic plants, but it looks real and I can't grow ferns.

My desk fern

Last night hubby and I talked, a much needed talk. I know he is grieving the loss of his beloved father. When he is sad, I feel it. too, like our energy reflects on each other. He is also still looking for a job. I was confused, I thought everything was ok. Apparently not. He didn't tell me they back-pedaled on the "good news" they previously gave him. 

I wish I could say I was confident in our future. I feel unsettled with the thought of leaving this apartment. rent is too darn high everywhere. I have plants. They need windows. I have been blessed with three windows here in this apartment. Three windows are rare as hen's teeth in apartments. I have been paring down my collection and going through boxes of stuff, sort of "pre-packing". I'm not sure how confident I am in hubby finding a good job. He is concerned as well. There are some well paying jobs over an hour away. Typically companies don't hire people that far away. We would need to move. 

Thankfully today is sunny. We are going for a walk later. I'm leaving today's blog at that, will write more later.